Benjamin Button is not so curious; I am old, too, while young in years. And I imagine that when I grow up, I will look as vital and act as enthusiastic as I will wish to have been when I was younger.

Although… I haven’t exactly read Benjamin Button, so I can’t really compare.

Right now I’m reading a six-part series of blurbs about Rothko’s life and art based on the definitive biography by a Mr. Breslin, as written in her blog by artiste Nancy Natale. There was a branch-off article about one of the Irascible Eighteen and the one woman, Hedda Sterne. She was interesting. Independent. Much like Hedda Gabler, maybe? In any case, I loved the three artworks Natale showed in the post. I am going to go to library and get a book that focuses on her… if one exists; otherwise, I’ll just have to settle with some other novels I’ve been wanting to read (plus Benjamin Button? I just read Great Gatsby, by the same author, recently for class, so…)

But anyway, let me stop my Polonius and get to the point:

Hedda Sterne said this in her (quite) old age in an interview:

You know, thinking, dreaming, musing become essential occupations. I am watching my life. As if I’m not quite in it, I watch it from the outside. Because after so many years of working unceasingly, and enthusiastically, being idle is a tremendous effort of concentration and adjustment … Sunday they [Romanian peasants] just sit, and their resting is so active – like an activity, resting. It’s a beauty to behold, you know. It’s not just doing nothing. It’s being and existing in a certain way. In a way old age is a little bit like that. It has its beauties.

The fact that I’m perusing random articles of interest–Rothko then Hamlet–for no real reason must mean that I am quite taken with just resting. My mother criticizes me just yesterday for not being “active” in the normal sense–earning money, learning how to get ahead, caring about making sure the house is in tip-top shape for… presumably the queen when she visits!!

I have to say that right now I don’t care.

Blame it on old age!